Tuesday, December 30, 2008

I am not in charge :-)

So many of my friends tell me how much Autism has changed their lives and themselves forever. Its made them sadder and full of care
In my life it has had the opposite effect
When I was pregnant I cannot tell you how much care I took .. I researched everything to death .. peeled fruit to avoid pesticides.. never ate any fish raw eggss alcohol ... you name it - i did it
I prayed so hard for a normal child
That is all I wanted- normal
And then I had an autistic child
If there ever was a hint from the universe that I was not in control no matter what I did .. there it was
Suddenly it was in my face .. how fast life can change in an instant
Knowing that you never know what happens the next moment has made me determined to enjoy each moment to its fullest
Life is much more beautiful even when its hard
This has been the gift of autism to me

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

I randomly came across your blog and I must say - you write very well. I could not stop reading until I read through most of it (until 2 am). Your life story is encouraging and inspiring to me. My brother-in law is a special needs kid and I was really really scared to have any children for fear of genetic inheritance. Thankfully, I have two lovely kids but after reading this I feel that God fills everyone's life with happiness, it's just that you have to work hard to discover it in your's.

K- floortime lite mama said...

thank you so much for that lovely commment
funnily in my life ( and I am only using my example ) - life after autism is actually happier than life before autism
Its brought perspective.
Changed my perception of what I consider important
Though I could never have predicted that I would feel this way if someone had asked me this question 5 years ago !

Floortime Lite Mama

On my life as the mother of an adorable 5 year old with Autism and Apraxia