I am worn out
Researching and Evaluating
Finding out the latest
Yes tell me what does that study published in Norway say about Vaccines causing Autism
Of wondering whether Autism is a dreadful monster to be conquered
Or just a way of being
Of trying to remember the last time I heard R say "ish"
Or if any of it really matters
His word for Fish
That I last heard more than three hundred and sixty five days ago
If I had known it was the last time I would hear it
I would have cherished it a little bit more
Remembered that moment and rewound it in my head
Thinking of something bright in response to "How's R doing?"
I say "he is doing great"
And trying to ignore the pregnant pause that follows
Which is filled with the unspoken
Wondering whether progress has been made
Whether he is on a plateau
Or really just on the verge of a developmental leap
Of trying to stay positive
Because being negative
Takes too much Energy
Which I read yesterday
Is the biggest resource of the mother of a child with Autism
Of wondering if there was anything I could have done to prevent it
I want to just be
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